After Love

saat jatuh cinta,
katanya sih ada "sparkling magic" nya
yang bikin kita selalu berbunga-bunga sendiri...
ah, namanya juga lagi kasmaran yaaaa... !!!

heheheheh...
bener atau engga, gak tau deh
how about you ?

dan saat kita sudah tidak jatuh cinta lagi,
magic that sparks itu pun lenyap pula...
many miracles, dalam bentuk accidentally or serendipity pun
rasanya ikut lenyap...

bukan lah pula
dua jalan setapak yang saling berdampingan tanpa ujung
tapi ini hanya bisa diibaratkan seperti
angin dan laut,
angin yang mampu menyentuh sang laut
tapi laut tak mampu menggapai angin...
sama sekali ga ada manis-manisnyaaaaa !!!

dan setelah itu...
hidup dalam permenungan yang sulit untuk di akhiri.
too many questions.
so many lonely days
so many tears in the nights...
bitter smile
and done!

segala rasa pun akhirnya hilang.

dari bibir pun akan terucap kata-kata penyemangat
yang hanya akan dimengerti oleh diri sendiri...
yang hanya akan di dengar oleh telinga kita sendiri.

... kehilangan kamu,
tak lagi sulit untuk kuhadapi.
kesibukan aku cukup membantu untuk melupakan rasa rindu itu...

... gak cuma kali ini aku kehilangan.
waktu jam tangan ku hilang, aku emang kesel beberapa saat
dan setelah itu aku gak pikirin lagi.

... yang paling sering adalah hilang ingatan !!
(nah lhooo... )
aku jadi pelupa...
lupa nama, lupa janji, lupa "things to do"
dan biasa aja ah... ga jadi masalah besar!
I can handle it.

even when i was losing you,

kehilangan kamu pun akhirnyaaaa, (mencoba untuk gak bohong niiii...)
dan segala alasan nya, ga sulit lagi untuk kuhadapi
walaupun nampak dalam pandangan mu
hal ini sangat sulit kuhadapi...
ya kan?!

(you know me that well, don't you?!)

Kavana - Will you wait for me

this is for you...
I hope every rain in heaven will sing you this song...

Will You Wait For Me
I need to talk with you again,
why did you go away,
All our time together, just feels like yesterday,
I never thought I'd seen,
a single day without you,
the things we take for granted,we can sometimes lose.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again,
will I see you again.
Cos time will pass me by, may be I'll never learn to smile,
But i know I will make it through,
if you wait for me.
(won't you wait for me.)
And all the tears I cry,
no matter how I try.
They will never bring you home to me,
won't you wait for me in heaven.
Do you remember how it was,
when we never seemed to care.
The days went by so quickly,
cos I thought you'd always be there.
It's hard to let you go,
though I know that I must try.
I feel like I've been cheated,
cos we never said goodbye.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again.
Cos I miss you so,
and I need to know,
Will you wait for me.



I really really really miss you...

my tears

they told me
that you already gone away...
go to a faraway land
when I can no longer see you
nor hear your voice...
these river of tears
won't bring you back
thousand of prayers will have no answer,
and that wings you gave me
just a mere wings...
they can't fly anymore.

and we've never say goodbye...


Written in the Stars

I am here to tell you we can never meet again
Simple really, isn't it, a word or two and then
A lifetime of not knowing where or how or why or when
You think of me or speak of me or wonder what befell
The someone you once loved so long ago so well

Never wonder what I'll feel as living shuffles by
You don't have to ask me and I need not reply
Every moment of my life from now until I die
I will think or dream of you and fail to understand
How a perfect love can be confounded out of hand

Is it written in the stars
Are we paying for some crime
Is that all that we are good for
Just a stretch of mortal time

Is this God's experiment
In which we have no say
In which we're given paradise
But only for a day

Nothing can be altered, there is nothing to decide
No escape, no change of heart, no anyplace to hide
You are all I'll ever want, but this I am denied
Sometimes in my darkest thoughts, I wish I'd never learned
What it is to be in love and have that love returned

I shout your name again dear...
I shout it out
but you can not hear me anymore

I spread my arms
just to hold you once again
but it's just an empty air ...

do you know how long my heart cried for you?
will it written in the stars,
and you will read it up there...?

Not mine to keep

Dicintai.

...adalah hal yang paling di inginkan oleh setiap manusia normal.
bahkan orang gila sekalipun.
kalo psikopat, ga tau deh !!

tapi kisah yang satu ini
apakah termasuk hal yang kita inginkan dalam hal mencintai...?!

...dalam segala senyum dan kesibukan kerja
di saat segala upaya untuk membalut luka hati,
dan mengeringkan segala airmata,
di saat hati sedang belajar untuk bangkit dari segala
kekecewaan dan loneliness yang tak berujung,
entah gimana awalnya,
hadirlah sosok orang itu.

dengan segala nilai lebih yang dia miliki,
he's smart
he's cool
he's wise
and goodlooking, ofcourse...
satu kemasan dalam paket manusia menyenangkan,
yang ga semua orang bisa miliki.
so...
what a lucky me, right?!
to meet such person like that...

apakah ini jawaban doa?!
tak pernah bosan berdoa dan meminta,
kiranya Big Boss, my Dear Lord, berkenan
memberikan penghiburan untuk menyembuhkan segala luka hati,
mungkinkah ini salah satu jawabannya?!

never thought before,
it never cross my mind at all,
that the perfect person would fall in love with me...
kenal sama orang seperti dia aja
dah jadi suatu penghiburan tersendiri!!
apalagi sampe di jatuhi cinta olehnya !!!!

Cupid yang bego,
atau it's just a lucky me?!

happy happy happy... just happy !!!!

happy for a while.

even though that love could made me fly to the sky,
and gave me the happy wings which I never had before,
I must go back to the ground
segera...!!!

this happiness is just for a while.
do you know why?!
because the love that he offered,
belongs to Someone else.
I can not fight for it
I'm powerless.

walaupun dia memaksa,
memohon...
agar aku mencintai dengan caranya mencintaiku,
tapi tetap ada satu hal yang tak akan pernah berubah,
this is not my rights to decide.
no change of heart.

akupun,
lalu memaksa diriku melangkah mundur
dan merelakan cinta yang begitu indah.
merelakan...
dengan langkah yang tegap,
dan kepala yang tegak.

what should I do?
I'm powerless, dear...
there is Someone
who owned you from the beginning,
loving you more than I do...

and God knows, how much I love you.




my dear sister...
this blog are for you and your man
this song are about every one
who ever felt like this...
and been through this...
like we did..

I want to stop

I want to stop
and relearn about everything
I want to stop
and recall my feelings back
I want to stop
and tied the hands of time
I want to stop
and dry all the falling tears
I want to stop
all the meaning of your presence
I want to stop
and change my heart...