someone older

butuh someone older ?!

kalo gue butuh!! banget...
siapapun dia orangnya bisa menjadi your someone older.
bukan karena umurnya yang sudah tuwek
dan berwujud mbah-mbah gitu lho!!!
tapi...
karena dia bisa kasih pandangan
kasih solusi objektif.

orang yang jam terbang nya tinggi pun bisa di jadikan
that someone older...

gue punya tuh satu !
(hihihiih... kayak ngomongin bolpen aja yah..)
kami saling menyebut satu sama lain sebagai soulmate (halah..)
yaaaaa... pas aja gitu!
dia adalah remyanodumas dalam wujudnya
dan remyanodumas adalah wujudnya dalam kemasan bodynya !!!
ga percaya...?!

pernah denger lagu "when you say nothing at all" ?!
itu bener kejadian.

kami saling tau, apa yang sedang dipikirkan oleh satu sama lain...
gue begitu hafal nada suaranya...
apakah dia lagi badmood
lagi madly in love
lagi marah
even saat dia lagi merasa tertipu puuuunnn... gue tau.

begitu juga dengan dia pada diriku.
gue nelfon, dengan nada suara yang riang
(walopun sebenernya hati sedang galaw dan butuh curhat... )
kepura-puraan gue itu... dia tau.


dia bukanlah orang yang akan menghakimi kegodohan gue
dia juga ga akan menasehati gue dengan kata-kata
yang sok bijak...
karena dia tau, mungkin someday
dia akan melakukan hal yang sama salahnya...
dan dia adalah orang yang bisa bikin gue brani
mengakui kesalahan terfatal dalam hidup gue.

that's why i called my someone older
dia ada buat gue,
bukan untuk sok-sok nasehatin
... karena dia tau, gue ga butuh solusi dari dia
dia ngerti bahwa gue dah tau solusi masalah gue tuh apa

dia akan bertindak sebagai
pendengar yang terbaik,
di saat tidak ada satupun yang mampu untuk mendengarkan.

dan dia tidak akan lelah
meyakinkan gue untuk bertindak sesuai dengan yang gue yakinin,
walaupun tidak sesuai dengan kata hati gue.

he will always be my voice when i could not speak
he will always be my heart when i could not feel
he will always be my mind when i could not think

he will always be my someone older...

in silence...

pernah merencanakan untuk jatuh cinta ?!

hahahahahhaha.... nah lho !!
apakah jatuh cinta itu bisa di jadikan suatu rencana?!
atau...
it's just happenend ?!

I was in love, once...
and it was out of my plans.
never cross in my mind,
ga pernah nyangka juga that i will fell soooooo... damn deep !!!

it was just another friendship that i made...
gue kan suka banget punya temen baruuu... apalagi yang 'klik banget.

at first...
it was just common talks, all in general...
ngobrol apa aja nyambung.
dan dia bukan tipe yang "sok nyambung-nyambungin"
emang dia begitu pintar !!! hahahah

yep yep yepppp...
smart guy is what i like most !!!
dan tanpa sadar
he was already occupied my mind.

gue ga rencana ...
ga ada sedikitpun niat...
tapi
he was there
becoming my mornings
my noons...
my nights.

and he came to my heart in silence.

i was never expecting him to fill my empty space.
i was never expecting,
that he would be the one who could bring back my smile...
he used to greet my soul with just mere words.
for a moment,
i really really thought that i could fly!


and...
when i got back to the ground
i found that
he was just a dream.
a sweet reality which never be mine.


i could only watched him from a distance
tried hard to hold the feelings.
tried hard to face the time
while my heart was so painfully forgetting him...

smakin mencoba untuk lupa, malah semakin menyakitkan...

love takes time to heal...
when you're hurting too much.

can't take this, charl...

I wish i could say to you..
"... Don’t turn away from me! "
would you look into my eyes...

all is gone
all my world is just blur in white


all questions are spinning in my head...
asking why have you given up on me?
You did that so easily...

... but to me it was so difficult.

From the very start...
We had a love that shouldn’t have been started
a love that shouldn't have grown...

My tears are mixed with wishes...
and it hurts to know
that I can’t put more of myself into you

I shout to my self...
wishing for you...
that you would never disappear from my life
don't you know that you are my light ?

If you leave...
don’t forget that it will all disappear...



I smile whenever I think of you,
though it becomes so hard on me

I cry whenever I think of you
and now...


I’m scared of everything.

my morning

pernah ga,
suatu hari bangun dalam keadaan males yang luar biasa?
(tidak ada maksud untuk tidak bersyukur lho... )

bertanya-tanya...
bakal ada apa ya hari ini...?
bakal ketemu siapakah...
akan semenarik apakah hari ini...
atau datar dalam grafik rutinitas yang seperti biasanya.. ?!

kalo kalian tanya, " how about me " the writer, heheheheh...
tentunyaaaaa... i got so many things from every morning...!!!

dari yang mendebarkan sampe yang paling menyebalkan pun ada !!

The Charlie, the one which i mentioned in previous blogs,
he was my daylight.
you will find some unusual things to imagine this
but this was my way of thinking...
he brought thousands of miracles...

in such way, just like a drug.

you won't believe me if I'm saying...
how strange yet wonderful my feeling was !

although i know...
i realize it won't be long...
but
i will taste it while it last
though it was just
a hollow feeling...

hatiku.

hatiku tak pernah berdusta.
di setiap sudutnya selalu ungkapkan mimpi jiwaku...
saat rindu terbangun, aku terhenyak oleh bayangnya,
ku diam.

nyata kini ku tersadar,
rinduku masih menunggunya.

dia...
dia yang dulu ada, melebur dalam tiap mimpiku,
menari dalam tiap hasratku.

hatiku tak akan berdusta.
saat duka mengayun ,
hatiku kan yakinkan jiwaku tuk tersadar.

walau tiap rasa adalah nyata,
walau tiap detaknya adalah nafasku,
walau rinduku masih menunggunya,

ku tau,
dia hanya sesaat.


terimakasih,
embun yang kau berikan setiap pagi
adalah semangat bagi hatiku.

for you Charlie

Never

i won't dare to say
the words that Juliet have said to Romeo
i won't try to raise my courage just to make you see
i won't let my feeling show,
it would not change anything.
i won't dare to fall in love with you
i only want to keep my love
inside my heart.


can not say how i feel,
it could melt my dreams away...
it could be worst !

speak softly love...

...speak softly love,
so no one hears us but the sky...

jadi inget waktu Jhonny Corleone lagi kabur dan ngumpet di pulau sicilia,
gara-gara jadi buron polisi di Amrik
(nonton Godfather Trilogy deh...jadi lu kagak roaming gituuuu... !!! )
nah... pas si Jhon ini lagi jalan-jalan di kampung sicilia itu
siang hari bolong, lagi terik-teriknya...
eeehhh...
ketemu lah dia dengan si cewek cantik ini, Apollonia namanya...
bagaikan di sambar petir di siang hari,
dia langsung jatuh cinta pada pandangan pertama!!!
trus married deh !!

sebetulnya...
ada gak sih love at first sight itu?!
real gak sih?

heran juga saat mendengar kisah bahwa ada tuh
orang yang rela "do anything to get their someone"
begging begging down on knees...
hanya gara-gara menurutnya, he/she is the one!!!
" i knew it from the very start...!! "

yaaaeeeeyaaalaaahh... orangnya setampan ari wibowo !!!
cantik dan sexy kayak vokalisnya pussy cat dolls !!
jelaslah lu bakal bilang
OMG, aku cinta pada pandangan pertamaaaa... !!!

apakah betul
semua hanya rekayasa pandangan mata.
mata lu mengelabui hati !!

buat gue...
cinta itu datangnya diam-diam, kadang malah kita gak nyadar
bahwa tuh orang adalah penghuni tetap di pikiran lu, dan
penghuni tetap di hati lu juga!!

sekali lagi gue ingatkan ya friends...
LOVE STARTS FROM SIMPLE THINGS

kisah cinta si cowok mafia nan ganteng di lagu speak softly love :

Speak softly, love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
We’re in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

...i feel your words,
that only few have ever known!

kayak jerawat ya?! gak terduga banget kapan datengnya.
quiet different with when you fart...
sometimes you already knew when will you gonna fart, right?!

Love doesn't come in a minute
sometimes it doesn't come at all...

well, that's about what i feel...
that was about, Jhonny Corleone felt...

and you ?!