... to Forget

while I was sitting here yesterday and searched some words to write...
I had nothing to decide about "to change" my feelings...
I kept my fingers ran through the keyboard and wrote those blog.
... then a chat box showed-up, and it says:

... : kenapa lo OL terus akhir-akhir ini?
maya : emang kenapa?
... : tumben... pengen tau aja.
chat with blackberry? or PC ? or cellphone?
maya : cell phone.
... : that's all. Just asking...bye.

but I couldn't help my self from asking, 'though my mind told me not to!!

maya : how are you lately?
... : I'm fine, still alive... still having those accupuncture stuff
bye now... got to watch IBL on TV!!
maya : .... (shi*, ass**le, da*n....!!!!! )


why should i asked further ???!!!!
didn't I learn many things these whole years ?!
have I forgot how easily my heart can break ???!!!

I've failed to understand...
in 2 minutes I tried to fight back the tears... it was worthless for that kind of person!

I have to move my heart and walk away.
for all these times, I've blinded by a memory
Yes, my friend... the memory which has turned me to be a mourner !!!

hahahahahah....
cape deeeeehh..!!!!!

udah ah, gue ga mau inget lagi yang sedih-sedih.
eh tapi gue mau kasih tau satu lagu yang bagus...
lirik nya yang bagus...musik nya apa lagi!!!
tapi kalo mau tau musik nya kayak apa...
search aja sendiri yah...

So Not Over You singing by Simply Red

Don't know why I still slept on my side of the bed
The emptiness when you were gone kept ringing in my head
Told myself I really had to move along now
Stop regretting all the things I left unsaid, yeah yeah

So I tore up your letters
Took your picture off my wall
I deleted your number, it was too hard not to call
Felt a little better, told myself I'd be fine
Got to live for the good times up ahead, yeah yeah

* 'Cos everywhere I go
There's a love song that reminds me of you
And even though I knew I had to be strong
I was still not over you
'Cos I still believe and I could see how there's nothing left of you and me
That time is over
'Cos I'm so not over you

All my friends try to tell me better find somebody new
Why waste time being lonely when there's nothing left to lose'
Anything to get you out of my mind
I'm a fool if I thought I could forget
And I could not forget

[Repeat *]

Now I found a way to keep you there beside me
To where my love won't be denied
I can only hope to keep you there and guide me
There's no more need to hide from all this pain inside

[Repeat *]

So not over you
That time is over
'Cos I'm so not over you Not


hahahahahhahahah...
tuuuhhh kan...
I've told you...great lyric isn't it !!!

How about you?
Have you ever try hard to forget ... but keep remembering in the same time?!

Tell me...
Supaya gue tau, that I'm not the only one.