never realize it..

diberi sayang...
menerima ungkapan sayang...
adalah hal yang sangat umum terjadi dalam keseharian kita
terlebih sebagai manusia normal yang memiliki keinginan dan kebutuhan.
(kalo ga salah, itu ada di diktat sosiologi kok! hahahahah... kamana atuh jaduuul..!!)

kita tuh ga pernah tau, atau mungkin juga udah tau ya?!
kenapa ada orang sayang ma kita atau perhatiin kita.
dalam hal ini maksudnya adalah person yang ada di luar keluarga, lho ya!!
karena gimana pun juga, tetep aja lah ada saat dimana kita ingin diperhatikan oleh orang lain selain keluarga dan orang terdekat.

dengan gaya yang sok ogah-ogah, di mulut keluar deh omongan
" kenapa ya kok dia perhatian banget ma gue.."
" kenapa ya kok dia sikapnya sweet banget ya sama akyuuuu..."
.... dan sebagainyalah semacam itu.

tapi di hati...jelasss... doyan !!!! hahahaahha...

kita gak ngeh aja, suatu saat...
kita pasti akan kangen sama perhatian itu.

kita cuma doyan aja diperhatiin tapi, belum belajar untuk menghargai perhatian itu. sampai pada suatu masa di mana perhatian itu berhenti.
it happened to me too.

just when someone said that he will be tied up in a marriage...
tanpa sadar, badan langsung lemes dengernya..
tanpa sadar, ada rasa sedih...
ada rasa kecewa.
pengen rasanya buru-buru pergi dari depan dia.
padahal saat itu, gue dah punya cowok juga.

egois ya gue?!
iyalah...

karena dari sekian lama perhatiannya, dan sikap baiknya, gue hanya menanggapi nya dengan angkuh bahwa... masih ada kok yang suka ma gue.

padahal dia beneran sayang tuh...
tanpa sadar, gue menyukai perhatiannya.
dan di saat dia harus menghentikan semuanya
hehehhehe... i left alone.

then I've learned that
(sigh..')
ga boleh menyepelekan perhatian seseorang.
bisa aja perhatian itu tulus...
(dalam hal ini, perhatian dari seorang psikopat adalah pengecualian yah !!!)

ga boleh sok-sok ignore perhatian oranglaen,
nyesel lo entar kalo dia beneran dah ngilang...

lagunya Marc Anthony ini pas banget di bagian reffrainnya, baca deh...


You Sang To Me

Oh...
I just wanted you to comfort me
When I called you late last night you see
I was fallin' into love
Yes, I was crashin' into love
Oh of all the words you sang to me
About life, the truth and being free, yeah
You sang to me, oh how you sang to me

Girl, I live off how you make me feel
So I question all this being real
'Cause I'm not afraid to love
For the first time I'm not afraid of love

Oh, this day seems made for you and me
And you showed me what life needs to be
Yeah, you sang to me, oh you sang to me

All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me

Just to think you live inside of me
I had no idea how this could be
Now I'm crazy for your love
Can't believe I'm crazy for your love
The words you said you sang to me
And you showed me where I wanna be
you sang to me, oh you sang to me

All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me

All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me

All the while you were in front of me I never realized
I just can't believe I didn't see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it
When you sing to me
How I long to hear you sing beneath the clear blue skies
And I promise you this time I'll see it in your eyes
I didn't see it, I can't believe it
Oh but I feel it